fredag 6 april 2012

If you were given the chance to be a fairy,

… would you do it? Or stay human?
Kerli: I believe I chose a human body at this very time for a specific purpose so I'd probably stay human. Being a human is hard, man...but it's also pretty amazing. Lately I've connected with angels much more than I have before and I'm manifesting all these crazy things with their help. Like when I need the meter to be broken cause I have no coins when I park then I just ask for the angels to find me a broken one and it always works. I do it with everything. It's so easy and so fun and makes your reality like a movie that u can direct. Being a human is a pretty exclusive chance, I must say. All the spirits want to come here as humans to learn these lessons and grow as a soul but not everyone can because there aren't enough bodies. Yet, there's more bodies on planet Earth than there ever has been before because we're entering a very special time and everyone wants to be here to witness.

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Do you sometimes wish you could be somebody else? Or something else..?
Sometimes I’ve wished I could just go to my dreamworld and stay there forever. Be a magical creature with other magical creatures as friends.
I found this old Q&A on in a topic called “Advise/Wisdom from Kerli” and it really got me thinking. I should focus more on being me, being here and being now, more than wishing I was something else.
What do you think?

Artwork for Army Of Angels by MoonChild Meko

And what special time do you think it is we’re entering?


söndag 22 januari 2012


Please read this, share this, spread awareness and send your good thoughts. We miss you and love you Dre!


fredag 13 januari 2012

New Year

Happy New Year!
I hope you all had a brilliant ending of 2011 and a shimmering start of 2012.

New starts

Most people see new years as perfect opportunities to make new starts. Some make new year resolutions to quit smoking, start training, to study more, to improve cooking skills, to stress less and I’ve also read on Facebook about some wanting to live more as the moonchildren they say they are.
But actually, we make new starts much more often than what we pay attention to. Many people feel like they make a new start every Monday after a weekend for example. Some make new starts every time they get paid. It’s different for each person. The point I’m trying to reach is that, I want You to remember that you don’t need a new year to make a new start. Some think they need the new year resolutions because they, for example, think they can’t make a promise to themselves that they can keep. But we are stronger than that and You can make a new start with a new challenge anytime you want. You just need to believe in yourself. Might sound stupid to some, but there are always people in the world that needs to hear things like this.


Did you make a wish for 2012?
When I was at my friend’s house, her mother asked us if we had made any new year resolutions this year. We both replied we had not, and I asked her if she had. She replied that she had not, but that she had made a new year’s wish. Of some reason, it made me happy to hear an adult saying she had made a wish for the new year. I guess it was because I am often surrounded by people refusing to believe in anything.

While talking about belief, I would like to pass on a tip from my best friend, Moonchild Amarah. I am sure most of you have heard about “The Secret”.
“Everything is possible, nothing is impossible. There are no limits. Whatever you can dream of can be yours, when you use The Secret”
The Secret is teaching a way of thinking “Ask. Believe. Receive.” that has changed many people’s lives through a film, and through a book that was written after the film was made.
I haven’t read the book myself, so I don’t want to say more than I know.
Have You read it or seen the movie? If You have any stories about The Secret, I’d love to hear them:)
The tip I got from Amarah was this:

An example of a daily teaching:)

A desktop widget with daily teachings! This free widget updates every day and brings a new message to your desktop for you to read (requires internet connection).
Why not download this widget and add the teachings to your new start? If your resolution was to become more positive for example, I am sure this could help you!

And this is how you do it:
1 Visit
2 Choose the widget you would like to download. (They’re all the same, but you have to choose the widget that works with your computer.)
3 When you’ve clicked on the widget you want to download, you mark the box, probably lying that you read and agreed with the terms and conditions (biggest lie ever haha, I’ve never seen anyone in my entire life reading through the terms and conditions!) and you click download and “save”.
4 When it’s downloaded, you’ll have to find the file on the computer, double click on it and choose “install”. Then you should have the widget on your desktop! Tada!

That was all for this time!
Hope we’re heading for a bright new year.

tisdag 29 november 2011

I looked at you, and all I saw was colors oh, so beautiful

"Those elements were ejected into space by the force of the massive explosion, where they mixed with other matter and formed new stars, some with planets such as earth. That's why the earth is rich in these heavy elements. The iron in our blood and the calcium in our bones were all forged in such stars.
We are made of stardust."


måndag 28 november 2011

How are You?

Depressions are so hard to talk about, but it’s also so important.
There are so many different kinds of depressions, and everything is not a depression.
Sometimes we just feel very low.

This is a part of an article about feeling down and being depressed from a site called UMO* that I translated:
“If you feel down for weeks, and also lose your interest for things you use to like, sleep too little or too much, have troubles concentrating, lose appetite, eat more than usual or get easily annoyed, you might need help to feel better. That also applies if you for example lose self-confidence and become self-critical, withdraw from people, spend much time pondering, get problems in school or in work, or receive suicidal thoughts. Then it might have become a depression, and then help from someone professional is needed. To be in a depression is something more than to be temporarily sad and down.”
*UMO is a Swedish national web-based youth friendly clinic for young people aged 13 to 25 years.

I’m going to talk about feeling the need to run away.

Maybe some people would consider me the wrong person to talk about things like this. I’ve never been really suicidal, and the thoughts I’ve had when I’ve been the most down, I want to keep to myself, as I consider them private.

But no matter if it made it to a depression or if it just was a period of feeling very down, it’s very, very though to get through. I’ve been through this so many times, I’ve felt like I was a prisoner, felt like I couldn’t do what I wanted to do, I’ve felt like I didn’t belong, felt like I’ve been with people I don’t like because I had to, I’ve felt like the pressure from school is too high that I’ve believed that I’m not enough, I’ve felt like I’ve done things just because I had to, etc, etc…

The last time I felt this way I listened to this song every day.

When I listened to it, I felt like it was the only one who understood how I was feeling (and now I realize how crazy it sounds but yes. I didn’t feel like any person could feel like I did, but this song understood me.) and I felt like it was supporting me.
The last time I felt this way was last week.
I’ve lost count how many times I’ve felt this way.
And I know so, so many people who’ve felt the same way.
Still, I, and so, so many others feel like no one would understand.

“I’ll have to swallow” is the line I guess I relate the most to. Every day I went to school, I felt like I had to put on a smile, pretend everything was fine and that resulted in that I received that horrible feeling of not being myself. I thought, either I did that or I’d be questioned for why I was so down.
I “knew” I wouldn’t be able to go through that second option.
Not always, but very often when I feel down, this happens. I don’t want to show people how I am feeling because I feel that I shouldn’t feel down. There’s something in me, telling me I shouldn’t complain just because I feel stressed. Or just because I feel lonely. Or just because I feel like I am not really living my life.
Everyone, every single person, feels down times to times.
I am not alone with it.
You are not alone with it.
They are not alone with it.
And we all have the same right to feel down. I even think that we need to feel down sometimes. To quote Patrick Wolf: “if it’s never dark, well how you gonna know the sun, when it shines?”

It’s hard though.
When you are in that dark tunnel it’s hard to believe there is a light at the end of it. Many times, you know it’s there, but you just feel like it’s impossible to reach it.
I often feel like the solution is to run away.
Not always in precise meaning, mostly it’s about locking myself in inside me. Isolating the world with music and just thinking and thinking and thinking. If people would ask me how I was feeling, I would probably just tell them I’m fine.
Sometimes the need to escape really gets so strong I want to run away. I never know where, just that I need to get out of where I am.
I’m not always sure of what I am escaping from either. Sometimes I am sure: I need to get of out where I am because the world we live in is too stressful to me. Sometimes I feel like I am a burden to other people that, if I’d run away, I’d do them a favour.

Listening to music like the song “Headache” won’t really help you. It helps you feel less lonely, but after some time, songs like this will only “support” your dark side. Doesn’t matter how good the song is, if it makes you feel stronger about feeling down, you shouldn’t continue listen to the song when you want to get out.
What I mean is, don’t listen to a song where someone sings “I’m not enough” when you are trying to get away from thinking that way.

Cry a river, build a bridge and get over it.

I think we all have our own ways of getting out of depressions, our own ways of finding Our Light again.
With Our Light, I mean our own Hope.
I believe hope is always inside us, that we just need to take care of it for it to bloom.

Let out your feelings.
I don’t think it’s healthy to keep your feelings inside.
Cry if you need to cry.
I think people who show their feelings are brave. Don’t You?

We all have different ways of getting better.
Some tell you to work out, to run, to move your body.
Why not dance out the darkness?
Some tell you to eat right, sleep right and I remember Kerli has said you should drink a lot of water.
Spend time in your favourite place, spend time outdoors, spend time with people you love.
Listen to music.

The most important thing to do, is to believe that better days will come.
That you can get out.
That you will get out.
Because You will.

It’s always darkest before the dawn ~

Here is a link to The Moonchild Chronicles’ post about “Dealing with loneliness, depression, etc.” which I think is a very well written text by Moonchild Lilly. The Moonchild Chronicles are Moonchild lessons about what a Moonchild is and how they should act. You can also send in questions that Lilly will answer:)

Let’s collect hope!

I almost always force myself to listen to hopeful music when I feel down. Sometimes it makes you realize things that you are too blind to see when you’re in the darkness.

So I’ve had this idea for a while now, to make a playlist on Spotify with YOU filled with music that brings YOU hope. I’ve made a collaborative playlist so that anyone can add their songs, all you need is a Spotify account:)

First note:
Millions of tracks, any time you like. Just search for it in Spotify, then play it. Just help yourself to whatever you want, whenever you want it.”
It’s free to get a Spotify account (READ SECOND NOTE!). You create an account and download and install. It’s really easy and don’t worry – it’s safe:)

Second note:
Spotify can’t be used in all countries. Here are the available countries:
“Spotify is available for free in Sweden, Norway, Finland, the UK, the US (invitation-only beta from July 2011), France, Spain and The Netherlands. Users in Austria, Belgium, Estonia, Germany, Greece, Italy, Poland, Portugal, Romania and Switzerland can use Spotify, but only under the Premium service.”
Spotify also says they hope to become available in many more countries. I hope so too!!
Premium service = paying service. Actually, it’s not too expensive if you really want Spotify.

Here is the link to the playlist:
All you do, (after you’ve created an account) is to press the subscribe button under the name of the playlist. Then it will be added in a list to your left and you can search for songs and drag them to the playlist.

Any questions? Either post them as a comment here, or e-mail !


tisdag 22 november 2011


I haven’t updated this blog for months. So much happened in my life… But now I will have another go with this.
So. This what you will read next is about something that happened to me this summer, the 9th of July.
That’s a long time ago, I know.
But it all made me think.
I wrote this months ago, but never got to post it here. But yes, I’m having a new go.

I never was afraid of the dark. Then I met darkness.

I was waiting for the bus arriving in half an hour with two friends. It was 22.30 and we were in a bus cabin, talking about just everything.

Suddenly this guy, around 20 years, comes to us. His balance wasn’t very good, so we figured he was drunk. He asked us how he could get to the trains with a bus leaving as soon as possible. Before we had listed up the buses for him he interrupted and told us he needed to help his’ ex-girlfriend from the club. He said she usually got very drunk and he didn’t want her to walk home alone, as she’d probably get raped.

He missed two buses cause he didn’t want to run to them. Now it was a 15 minutes before the next bus going to the trains would arrive, so he sat down and talked to us.

It didn’t take long until we realized something was wrong. He told us he had broken into a rapist’s house last week, that he had crushed a window and cut himself on the glass. He showed us the wound on his wrist. And he started going on and on about that men who attacked women totally had lost all respect. I can agree with that.
Then a bus came that he could take.

He ran in front of the bus to stop it. He said “They always stop”, and that if he’d die, it wouldn’t matter cause he’d lost so many people.

I can not tell everything he said, cause I don’t know what was true, and if what he said was true, then people could get hurt if they saw this blogpost. But I can say this.
The bus driver didn’t let him on the bus cause he was too drunk and seemed violent as he had stopped the bus by standing in front of it. So this guy came back to us. With a really frightening smile on his’ lips.

Then he asked us if we knew a guy called -. We didn’t. And he told us who that person was. I can not write here who… But I can say this. It made me afraid of the dark that night.

He told us that he would tell this person to shoot the head off the bus driver.

He sat down beside me and I felt very scared. Then another man, nearly 30 years, came to the bus cabin to check what time his bus would arrive. And he asked us how he could send a “text message ticket” (in Sweden around Stockholm you can’t pay with money on the bus, so if you don’t have a ticket, you can send a text message to the bus company and get a reply that is your ticket) and to what number. Me and my friends told him what to send and to what number. But then the drunken guy tried to interrupt us and tell the man another number. Luckily the man didn’t listen to him; he thanked us and got out of the cabin.

Now the drunken guy told us that we shouldn’t have given that man the right number. “What if he would take the same bus as you?” “Always give the wrong number, so people like him won’t get on the bus.” And the reason was: he could be a rapist.
He said:
“Look at him. He doesn’t look very cool.”
That man looked like a happy man. I didn’t understand what this guy meant.
It was as if he couldn’t see the difference between a threatening man and an innocent man.

I just prayed to God that this guy’s bus would come sooner.

When two ~18-year-old boys passed the street and walked towards our cabin, the guy mumbled “Now someone’s coming…” and grabbed his pocket as if he had something in it.
As he didn’t take anything out I can’t tell what, but after everything he’d told us my first thought was “He’s going to stab them with a knife if they come closer”.

The two boys didn’t come closer. And the guy didn’t stab anyone.
He talked some more about rapists and his hate towards them… He told us once again he needed to help his ex from the club. Then, finally, his bus came and me and my friends just went “Oh, please let him on the bus!” and the bus took off, with him on it.

Yes, I could breathe out.
I didn’t need to be scared for my sake at all, as I am a girl.
But I didn’t breathe out.
I thought of the bus driver. I thought “What if he was serious? What if he will tell that guy to shoot the bus driver?” and now the hurtful part for my sake; “Could I have done something to stop him?”

It took two days until I realized I had to drop those thoughts.
What’s happened has happened.
And he was drunk.
But if anything like this would happen again, I want to remember that Kerli quote:
“Hate breeds hate. Love breeds love. Be love.”, and I want to try to explain this to that person.

When I heard what had happened on Utøya in Norway I just…
I seriously still don’t have any words for it. It broke my heart.
All my love to the ones involved with that tragedy.

We need to make a difference.
We have to start with ourselves.

Let’s start a Love Revolution

Do you know what really cheers people up?
A smile.
How simple a smile seems, but still… Really.
I don’t even know how many times a smile from a stranger have cheered me up.

My favourite memory is from this one time when I was really sad. I waited for the bus to pick me up. When the bus came, two older boys who I didn’t know stepped in front of me and got on the bus before me, almost pushed me aside, even though I’d been standing there. I was so sad that I didn’t even care. But when I got on the bus I felt that the bus driver looked at me. So I looked back and he smiled kindly to me and said hi. That made my day.

If you don’t do it already, try one day. When you feel happy, just share your happiness by smiling against people. If someone looks strange at you, don’t even bother. You’re just trying to make the world a better place.

Secret Moonchild

Of course a smile isn’t always enough. But it is definitely something! :):) Actually I started thinking of Secret Moonchild when I was writing this blogpost. Secret Moonchild is an inspiring moonchild who tweets tips and gives you challenges and a lot of wise words! So check out and follow @SecretMoonchild on!/SecretMoonchild.
Let’s ilu the world, together :)

Extra much Light and Love

torsdag 14 juli 2011


I just read an amazing blogpost and listened to amazing music by an Estonian artist called IIRIS, and thought I’d share the link to this blogpost. I felt really inspired when I’d read the translation of what she says in the video, and I hope it will inspire you too.

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And now a few words about this blog :)
I will soon put up a new blogpost about something that happened to me a couple of days ago, and I will also put up a video from a USTREAM-chat with Kerli about “The White Room”. I just have a lot to do, and this week I am going to visit one of my best friends, a Moon Child from
Germany, who I’ve got to know thanks to Kerli :) But I hope that I will get everything I’ve planned (so far, hehe) up here in a not so super long time!

Isn’t it amazing how flowers can pop up just anywhere?

Much Love and Light <3